Music Instruction: listen and feel the healingHere I am at the Sanctuary. Walking towards the forest path.
Out of nowhere appeared a group of daffodils. One was bowing to me. Its bright yellow petals facing me. I stood still and introduced myself.
I sensed a subtle movement and another bow from the flower.
Suddenly, I felt tears streaming down my face.
There I was in my childhood, age five or six, standing next to the daffodils in the hills of Netanya. I felt so much joy there, running up and down the dunes picking the daffodils and other wild flowers. I decided that it was the daffodils that I would pick and bring as a gift of joy to my mother.
But joy was not my mother’s reaction. She pushed the flowers away and refused my gift of love.
Unknowingly, for many years when I brought her flowers she reacted similarly. She didn’t explain and I felt I couldn’t ask. Many years have passed and we both had sadness and hurt in our hearts. No one spoke about it and the house felt empty without any flowers.
One day and I have no idea when – I got it. My mother was grieving all her adult life and I was grieving with her. She was grieving for all the losses she had experienced in this life. Her first born, her family – all gone. There was no consolation for her and no consolation for me.
I was a child who wanted to bring my mother the joy and gift of the flowers.
I, as the child was back at home in Netanya. I picked up the daffodils from the ground and determined to keep them I placed them in a vase. Our home lit up with joy and sunshine. For a brief moment I saw my mother’s face beaming. That brought happiness to my heart.
Still standing at the Sanctuary’s forest path facing the daffodil that was still bowing to me – I realized that healing was taking place.
This daffodil was communicating with me. Helping me to let go. I thanked it and continued my walk.
Music: Echoes of Stillness – track 1 – Stillness 1
Kamal and Master Charles
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